december full moon: reflections & tarot intelligence
how an angel spoke to me, how I'm a multidimensional goddess, and how Elton John and I have something in common
~ about a 4 minute read
these come out once a month on the full moon, as well as my curious musings on Mondays, and my poetic musings on Thursdays. thanks for being here my loves xox
reflections
on the Sagittarius new moon I pulled the wishes card from my maiden deck so on my knees I made my wishes, at my altar, where the blooming pink flowers from my garden sat, breaking my heart. I wished for confidence and money at the witches faire. I wished for money and confidence with this publication, and ever since that night when the moon hid in shadow and rebirthed herself once again, I have been gifted money and confidence with this publication and my tarot. it’s been a huge month for me, full of wishes fulfilled resulting in feelings of ick, rejection, and turbulence. so there you go. sometimes your dreams turn into curses and you gotta ask yourself, what’s that about? I am not ungrateful - I am overwhelmed.
I came across an angel by the name of
I had a beautiful day with beautiful people at the witches faire last weekend where I read tarot for 7 hours straight and felt refuelled with hope and faith for human beings. if you’re in the community you will know it’s ok. if you’re on your phone/the news/media you will think there is no hope. I did cry all the way home and as josh poetically told me, I am in my sacred sad era; feeling some happy sadness that will reshape me.
I have nearly finished The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath and it has been both awe inspiring, and grotesque. she writes colourful, brimming sentences like, ‘the full, bosomy elms made a tunnel of shade over the yellow and red brick fronts’, and ‘a summer calm laid its soothing hand over everything, like death.’ a little bit of me dies knowing I will never write as succinctly and beautifully as she does. a bit of me also dies when I think about how she stuck her head in the oven in her apartment in Primrose Hill while her one and two year old children slept in the other room.
welcoming in
I’ve been listening to a goddess who plays healing guitar in the back of a truck as she drives through forests and sunsets with her eyes closed in deep prayer. this is now a staple in our house.
I also came to the realisation that I am a multidimensional goddess and that this is my gift, in all its messiness, and I do not need to fit into an already fixed box.
I am also pushing myself to do things I do not want to do - not things like being social or being pleasing but more like things that scare me and that I know will make me grow once I do them.
life isn’t about finding yourself… life is about creating yourself - George Bernard Shaw
letting go
I have got validation for my art coming from everywhere and still I focus on what is lacking. when I spoke to josh about this he said, ‘whose validation are you still seeking that you don’t receive,’ and his mic dropped right there in the hallway. so maybe my father wound is here and present in my art and I want daddy’s approval but if the film Rocketman taught me anything it’s that you ain’t getting anything from a stone. Elton John had to love himself and comfort his own inner child to set himself free so I’m trying to work on this while I sing and I think it's gonna be a long, long time
'Til touchdown brings me 'round again to find
I'm not the man they think I am at home
Oh, no, no, no
I'm a rocket man
tarot intelligence <>
if anyone has been feeling more on the side of what the fuck is going on, this full moon in gemini is dynamic and fierce, promising closure and completion.
I’m working with my feminine tarot deck and accompanying oracle cards, Aboriginal Spirit by Mel Brown.
the 3 of swords indicates there is pain that wants to be let go of, maybe heartbreak, maybe disillusionment, but there seems to be indecision around this. it’s hard to let things go, even when they bring us no joy. but you know what you need to do, it’s just coming to terms with this on a logical level. the time is right with the gemini full moon pushing for closure - she holds you in her wholeness. we must let go things; energy needs to move.
when we move to the empress energy; abundance, creativity and fertility, we birth the life we want, the life we deserve. to live for oneself in a creative and authentic space is a sign of self-respect; to do something or be in something that makes us unhappy tells the universe this is all we deserve. empress energy knows when to cut her loses and move on.
all my love xoxo
Love these full moon posts!!
This is a great post but the guitar playing video is life-changing! My new favorite thing.